Do you like drawing?

Do you like painting?

if not!

then have you ever do something you feel like? It a kind of "talent"

but when you need to learn more and that thing is more complicated you though.

You must properly move it away from you and leave it for the "talent" because once it came 

part of your job or duty. Then, you will not like it!

I am feeling on that way!!

My project director talked to me yesterday regarding to my job. He wanted to swicht my duty from

admin things to the web career!!

At the office, we are doing our own website, but it is belonging with our partner in Malaysia. 

we are not satisfiled with their job, we decided to move the website to Bangkok instead.

My project director has a compliement to my design which I am not happy with.

I told him that "you are presured on me! I have a talent only for the design, but I have no ideas at all 

for the hardware. How can I do?

"Your design are nice! I like it! Christmas card, Onn's wedding card. I'm sure you will be able to do that"
he said

" I am holding a master degree in mass communication and desire to use my skill for my future career. 
I haven't hold a degree in IT"

but I didn't tell him!

I just said nothing and turned back to my chair without the answer.

I felt that my education investment has gone!!

I what should I do

I am a smartest person for the design in the office, but I will be a smallest person in the IT company.

I happy with my tiny thing which will never become to my duty. I drawed my freedom color without 

the demanding, but I couldn't handle it if it became a frame of demanding.

I wish that my mum is here, sitting beside my side and say that "It will be better by tomorrow" 

you can handle it! I miss her so badly! 

Seems to be nothing for this moment, but there was something for me!